I'm back blues

back in bg
went to bed at 8:00 last night
too much sleep
anxious to get to work
miss everyone here
confused about next year
germany in July
Italy hopefully after
lost
lost
lost
anxious
kicking my ass
haven't worked on papageno as much as I should be
need a break
feeling good health wise
hittin the rec later
shopping for a few things
bored
work is dead
looking at pics of greg on the front of our brochure
makes me laugh
nephews and niece cried when I left
I cried as I pulled out of the driveway
I love them so much
they will probably be the only resemblence to children I will see
do I want to be a father?
someday I think
don't want to screw up a kid's head
need the career
things for myself first
be able to give the kid everything and more
too young to think about now
i'm like a woman sometimes
worry that all of that won't happen until i'm like 50
if at all
life changes
started studying buddhism again
so enlightening-literally.
"live always in the moment justin!"
working out
eating right
feels great
new years is approaching
scary about a couple resolutions
I know I can do it.
No plans as of yet-
things are up in the air.
quiet evening-part of me desires
completely buggered-other part of me desires
don't work tomorrow
don't know what I'll do
no work on Monday
long weekend
visit friday from mio bello
my friend sarah won a big voice competition
lots of money and good recognition
she's had way too much rejection
finally a small payoff
hopefully the same will happen to me
I need to practice...
XOXO
justin