Monday Monday

I don't know how productive this weekend was for me! I was determined to get all of FLUTE memorized, didn't happen. Friday I came home and took a nap, which ended up being two hours instead of the hour I intended it to be. Later that night I did some laundry, studied the score, and then was on the phone for almost 5 hours with Hunter in San Diego. It was a really hard conversation, and we still have things to talk about for sure. I did say how I felt, however there wasn't a clear conclusion drawn at the end of the conversation. He says he may try to come see the opera, if not for sure the recital. He's singing Tamino right now in CA, which I found quite humorous. I do wish I could have physically been there to say these things--perhaps it would have made things easier or different in some way. I don't know... I just have so much on my mind right now....so much in my life is changing and it's very difficult for me to say the right things and make the right decisions often--I don't want to act on impulse, anger, or rage.
Saturday I was in BG all day copying music for Kate, practicing, and finalizing my Germany stuff--although I still need to get my passport!!!!
Sunday I had my church job and then went shopping in Toledo for a bit--spent way too much money-but it was definitely needed. I then went back home and slept for a while and then went off to BG to meet michael and then practice. Good times...there may be a Philly trip in the works---I gotta get my shit done. I've had no time to get a good workout in which is really pissing me off--though the scale is being kinder to me these days because I'm watching what I'm eating...I need that cardio and lifting to get what I want. Hopefully once FLUTE is completely memorized and I'm comfortable with everything (which WILL be after this week) I can get into a regular schedule because I won't be scrambling to the practice room after rehearsal and later in the evening to play "catch up." So my goal this week is to get the comfortability that I need so can put that workout in after rehearsal or something.
I'm dreading turning another year older on thursday...and unfortunately I probably wont get to go and drink because I have rehearsals all evening and then I'm sure will have rehearsal on Friday. I haven't had a drink since New Years eve now...WAYYYYYYY too long need one NOW!
Off to work...
XO
Justin